Monday, January 10, 2011
Frustrated
What do you do when the person you are interested, isnt interested? I know the standard....get over it and move on. However, I believe there is something there and this person has not fully opened their eyes to see the beauty that is before them. Let me back up, I had a dream that shook me to the core. I have never dreamed about getting married let alone being married and with this person I did. It was so clear....I knew every phase of the dream from our first date to dating to the proposal to literally seeing myself smiling in a white dress and him at the end of the isle. I looked so happy but what does it all mean. I have tried to reveal myself in many ways but it seems to push them farther away. Am I pushing myself into feelings for this person or is it real? Was the dream symbolism for what is to come? I talked to my mom and she of course said I am just ready to settle down and the person was just a fluke. I dont normally hold on to dreams but this one I cant shake. It freaks me out to think of me in a white dress committing my life to someone but maybe my mom is right, maybe I am ready to settle down. I mean I am 32 and my biological clock isnt ticking any slower. But I really dont think children are in the cards for me but is marriage? So many people tell me to just wait, wait and give it time but I have been waiting, for 32 years. I know it has to be on God's time and not mine but I really dont want to be a crazy cat lady and I feel that is where I am headed. In fact I almost bought the crazy cat lady action figure as an representation of my future if I dont get my crap together. So here it is, if any one reads this, PLEASE tell me what to do: 1) get over it or 2) continue to follow this dream and press on in hopes my heart wont get broken in the end?????
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