Reflections

So this weekend I went to the Cake/Smashing Pumpkins concert. The dude in front of us was TOTALLY token and the smell + the music took me back. I am not proud to say I used pot on a regular basis and one of my fav bands was Smashing Pumpkins. I began reminiscing about the old days and the "fun" we used to have. As I was driving home after the concert I began thinking about how different my life has become. When I attended my 10 year reunion and told people what I did, most people were shocked because it was assumed I would be on the other side of the law. I was a mean girl and partier. My friends and I did some VERY stupid things to get alcohol and drugs and found ourselves in some scary situations. So if I think what we did was stupid, why would I reminisce about the good ol days? Sometimes I wonder if I just aged out of using and being stupid or if I was just given more of an opportunity to change? Its weird when I think about the person I could have become had I stayed on that track. I look at some of my clients and think, why dont you want to change, I did. Some days I think, I want to go back to that life, care free and fun. Alas, I know that it would never be an option because I have so much to lose. I guess I should just sit back, smell the smells and remember how it used to be.